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Saturday, July 2, 2016

#throwback - About a Mother

May 20, 2006, 5:54 am
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How do u tell a mother cat that her child is gone?
I was awaken this morning by her cry as she looked down the balcony. As I peered to see what was she looking at, there it was, the tiny kitten already afloat and frozen in the pool. She still thinks its alive so i went down to get it. Not to my surprise the kitten was long gone.

I told her it’s okay while i'm thinking what the hell, she won’t even know what i'm saying. The thing about human (with religions) you can always tell them to turn to God. But how do you tell a cat to do that? I wonder, in the most super natural way, does God let them know about his existence. Are they made to know that all sufferings will come to an end one day or do they just breathe until its their turn to stop, which then led me to think hey, that’s what most of us are doing anyway despite of what we are made to know of. So thinking that i may not find the answers in that short time span, i decided to sing while holding her in my lap. So for bout half an hour, there i was singing a tune from Miss Sheila "aku cinta padamu" (i love you) after considering rock-a-bye baby would not be appropriate for this occasion. I might as well let her know i love her.

And to my surprise her crying stopped, and she went about her usual business like nothing happened. Maybe she just wanted me to stop singing haha, but i got some answers there and then.

1. About my faith - i purposely sang a love song and avoided any songs with the word baby, even though i know she wont understand it. I must have some faith that sumone up there will let her know what i was telling her.


2. About God Maybe he didn’t have to tell her anything. All he did was take the pain away.

Kite Flying



     I was recently reminded of flying. Here's a tribute to all beautiful kites blown by the wind through space and time. The song of the night will be this :) 

Saturday, June 25, 2016

Tersergam

Lyrics to an unsung song, written a year ago. Loneliness is beautiful. Perhaps I was reminiscing a moment in time. The song is in malay. The meaning...perhaps meaningless.. :)

Verse 1:
Merpati di tepi tingkap
Sedang nyonya menyidai baju
Bagai mengadu
Perihal pagi itu

Bridge:
Sang Miao berjalan
Mencari makanan
Lagak kaki lima dia…empunya

Jutaan jantung degup
Dalam satu alam
Tersenyum ku memandang..

Chorus:
Mana mungkin kan sepi
Walau tersergam ku seorang diri
Dunia-Nya menemani
Dengan setia pasti
Tanpa sana-sini menabur kan janji

Verse 2:
Terkejut dengar jeritan
Dari pintu kedai di depan
Ada drama cinta
Yang sedang dilakonkan

Bridge:
Sang Miao berjalan
Mencari makanan
Lagak kaki lima dia…empunya

Jutaan jantung degup
Dalam satu alam
Tersenyum ke memandang..

Repeat Chorus:
Mana mungkin kan sepi
Walau tersergam ku seorang diri
Dunia-Nya menemani
Dengan setia pasti
Tanpa sana-sini menabur….

Mana mungkin terasa sepi..
Walau tersergam ku seorang diri

Dunia-Nya menemani
Dengan setia pasti
Tanpa sana-sini menabur….kan janji

Saturday, June 18, 2016

#throwback - Hello life!

So, a decade ago when  some local tycoon decided to buy over Friendster and turned it into an avatar infested gaming site, all my previous blog posts were gone...until a silent reader contacted me and told me he had backed up all of them! So I'm introducing the #throwback time where I will post those long lost blogs from another time. A time of much more naivety, much more melancholy (but of course) and many more typos. Here's one to start with :)

November 12, 2006, 4:07 am
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I’m practically still glued to my bed rite now, with my mind wondering off someplace. So i decided to write again.

AN ENGAGEMENT
Last weekend i was the "best woman" for my best friend’s engagement. The 3 of us stayed up for 2 nights in a row getting everything in place. Gosh, if only the guy knew how much of things we had to do to welcome their arrival. I mean, all of us were nearly down with fever the night before the engagement. I dont mind me as im sickly anyways, but the fiancee to be, she needs to be in good shape! But all in all it works out really well. She looked gorgeous in her green kebaya and white, glittering selendang. Like a princess. And yes, i shed my tears (no big surprise) when the guy’s mom hugged her tight in her arms. Can’t help it, it was really sweet. I cant forget the look on her face as she laughed when she saw my tears. It was sooooo expected huh. Anyway, im so happy for you darling and i cant wait to shed more tears when the big day arrives!

A DEATH
Later in the week i went to a memorial service for another friend’s mom whom just passed on. She’s a free thinker but the mom requested to be baptized a month before she passed on.So the service was a Christian one with songs and prayers. I did not know the mother, but from the eulogy, she must have been a wonderful woman. And i prayed that she is taken care of as well as how she must have deserved it. And yes, me cried again.

A BIRTH
And to complete the circle of life, i went to a colleague’s (whom just admitted he’s married) baby shower in Royal Selangor Club. It was suprisingly grand for a baby’s party. As i played with the little one, i prayed that he’s going to grow up strong, healthy and handsome just like his daddy, but maybe with a little more honesty thrown in  ;). No tears for this one, hurray!

So yes i saw a glimpse of many phases in life last week and walked out of each ceremony, taking a ciggie out of my bag and smoke away.